diwali crakers global warming

I am still pondering in the point of no crakers for diwali.

I have lived all these years every diwali enjoying crakers and festive mood with sweets during diwali.

for the past 4 years after reading a lot about global warming , i had decided we should not burst crakers.

i discussed the same with my daughter, and she also agreed that we have to do our part and stop polluting.

so we never bought any crakers .

though diwali is over my mind is crying, not that i sacrificed but due to guilt.

all these years from my chilhood i have lived with lot of children and every year we enjoyed all these crakers and fun.

today my daughter she is alone without much children  around, and the only enjoyment bursting was also stopped by me.

i feel guilty that i have deprived her of the enjoyment, which i have done all these years.

i want support from others as far as this is concerned.